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  Meet Ginny Moon.

  She’s mostly your average teenager—she plays flute in the school band, has weekly basketball practice and reads Robert Frost poems for English class. But Ginny is autistic. And so what’s important to her might seem a bit...different: starting every day with exactly nine grapes for breakfast, Michael Jackson, taking care of her baby doll and crafting a Big Secret Plan of escape.

  Ginny has been in foster care for years, and for the first time in her life, she has found her “forever home”—a place where she’ll be safe and protected, with a family who will love and nurture her. Though this is exactly the kind of home that all foster kids are hoping for, Ginny has other plans. She’ll steal and lie and reach across her past to exploit the good intentions of those who love her—anything it takes to get back what’s missing in her life. She’ll even try to get herself kidnapped.

  Told in an extraordinary and wholly original voice, Ginny Moon is at once quirky, charming, bighearted, poignant and yet also heartbreaking and a bit dark. It’s a story of a journey, about being an outsider trying to find a place to belong and about making sense of a world that just doesn’t seem to add up.

  The Truth According to Ginny Moon

  Benjamin Ludwig

  Contents

  6:54 at night, Tuesday, September 7th

  7:33 at night, Tuesday, September 7th

  2:27 in the afternoon, Wednesday, September 8th

  2:50 in the afternoon, Wednesday, September 8th

  2:45 in the afternoon, Thursday, September 9th

  6:45 in the morning, Friday, September 10th

  7:04 in the morning, Friday, September 10th

  9:08 in the morning, Saturday, September 11th

  11:03 at night, Sunday, September 12th

  11:32 in the morning, Monday, September 13th

  Exactly 6:57 in the morning, Tuesday, September 14th

  Exactly 3:31 in the afternoon, Tuesday, September 14th

  Exactly 10:05 in the morning, Wednesday, September 15th

  Exactly 6:52 in the morning, Friday, September 17th

  Exactly 10:33 in the morning, Saturday, September 18th

  Exactly 9:10 in the morning, Monday, September 20th

  Exactly 3:05 in the afternoon, Tuesday, September 21st

  Exactly 4:08 in the afternoon, Wednesday, September 22nd

  Exactly 5:29, Monday, October 18th

  Exactly 5:43 at night, Monday, October 18th

  Exactly 5:27 in the morning, Tuesday, October 19th

  Exactly 6:23 in the morning, Tuesday, October 19th

  Exactly 7:02 in the morning, Tuesday, October 19th

  Exactly 7:09 at night, Tuesday, October 19th

  Exactly 6:50 at night, Wednesday, October 20th

  Exactly 6:22 in the morning, Thursday, October 21st

  Exactly 11:33 in the morning, Thursday, October 21st

  Exactly 11:40 in the morning, Thursday, October 21st

  Exactly 2:48 in the afternoon, Thursday, October 21st

  Exactly 12:08 in the afternoon, Saturday, October 23rd

  Exactly 2:08 in the afternoon, Saturday, October 23rd

  Exactly 6:44 in the morning, Monday, October 25th

  Exactly 11:28 in the morning, Thursday, October 28th

  Exactly 4:14 in the afternoon, Friday, October 29th

  Exactly Halloween—2:05, Sunday, October 31st

  Exactly 2:52 in the afternoon, Tuesday, November 2nd

  Exactly 9:08 at night, Tuesday, November 2nd

  Exactly 4:17, Wednesday, November 3rd

  Exactly 8:05 in the morning, Thursday, November 4th

  Exactly 3:31, Friday, November 5th

  Exactly 8:24 in the morning, Monday, November 8th

  Exactly 5:53 at night, Wednesday, November 10th

  Exactly 6:44 in the morning, Friday, November 12th

  Exactly 10:37 at night, Tuesday, November 16th

  Exactly 6:22 at night, Wednesday, November 17th

  Exactly 10:55 in the morning, Saturday, November 20th

  Exactly 12:41 in the afternoon, Monday, November 22nd

  Exactly 11:41, Friday, November 26th

  Exactly 4:17 in the afternoon, Monday, November 29th

  Exactly 12:41 in the afternoon, Tuesday, November 30th

  Exactly 2:48 in the afternoon, Wednesday, December 1st

  Exactly 1:58 in the afternoon, Saturday, December 4th

  Exactly 3:55 in the afternoon, Wednesday, December 8th

  Exactly 2:51 in the afternoon, Thursday, December 16th

  Exactly 3:03 in the afternoon, Wednesday, December 22nd

  Exactly 11:56 at night, Friday, December 24th—Christmas Eve

  Exactly 6:16 in the morning, Saturday, December 25th—Christmas Day

  Exactly 4:00 in the afternoon, Saturday, December 25th—Christmas Day

  Exactly 11:05 in the morning, Sunday, December 26th

  Exactly 8:23 at night, Friday, December 31st—New Year's Eve

  Exactly 7:07 at night, Wednesday, January 5th

  Exactly 11:33 in the morning, Friday, January 7th

  Exactly 9:08 in the morning, Saturday, January 8th

  Exactly 4:08, Monday, January 10th

  Exactly 6:32 in the morning, Tuesday, January 11th

  Exactly 8:58 in the morning, Wednesday, January 12th

  Exactly 3:02 in the afternoon, Thursday, January 13th

  Exactly 3:12 in the afternoon, Friday, January 14th

  Exactly 9:18 in the morning, Saturday, January 15th

  Exactly 9:44 in the morning, Sunday, January 16th

  Exactly 3:50, Monday, January 17th

  Exactly 5:14 at night, Tuesday, January 18th

  Exactly 5:28, Tuesday, January 18th

  Exactly 5:36, Tuesday, January 18th

  Exactly 3:31 in the afternoon, Wednesday, January 19th

  Exactly 9:32 in the morning, Thursday, January 20th

  Exactly 4:48 in the afternoon, Thursday, January 20th

  Exactly 2:10 in the afternoon, Friday, January 21st

  Exactly 2:58 in the afternoon, Friday, January 21st

  Exactly 11:19 in the morning, Sunday, January 23rd

  Exactly 4:03, Sunday, January 23rd

  Exactly 10:47 in the morning, Monday, January 24th

  Exactly 11:02 in the morning, Monday, January 24th

  Exactly 7:02 in the morning, Tuesday, January 25th

  Exactly 7:57 in the morning, Tuesday, January 25th

  Exactly 11:28 in the morning, Tuesday, January 25th

  Exactly 10:58 in the morning, Wednesday, January 26th

  Exactly 11:07, Wednesday, January 26th

  Exactly 4:35 in the afternoon, Thursday, January 27th

  6:54 AT NIGHT,

  TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 7TH

  The plastic electronic baby won’t stop crying.

  My Forever Parents said it’s supposed to be like a real baby but it isn’t. I can’t make it happy. Even when I rock it. Even when I change its diaper and give it a bottle. When I say ush, ush, ush and let it suck on my finger it just looks dumb and screams and screams and screams.

  I hold it close one more time and say, Nice and gentle, Nice and gentle, in my brain. Then I try all the things that Gloria used to do whenever I went ape-shit. A
fter that I put my hand behind its head and move up and down on my toes. “All better. All better,” I say. From high to low like a song. Then, “So sorry.”

  But still it won’t stop.

  I put it down on my bed and when the crying gets louder I start looking for my Baby Doll. The real one. Even though I know it isn’t here. I left it back in Gloria’s apartment but crying babies make me really, really anxious so I have to look. It’s like a rule inside my brain. I look in my drawers. I look in the closet. I look in all the places a Baby Doll might be.

  Even in the suitcase. The suitcase is big and black and shaped like a box. I pull it out from under my bed. The zipper goes all the way around. But my Baby Doll isn’t inside.

  I take a deep breath. I have to make the crying stop. If I put it in the suitcase and put enough blankets and stuffed animals around it and push it back under the bed then maybe I won’t hear it anymore. It will be like I put the noise away inside my brain.

  Because the brain is in the head. It is a dark, dark place where no one can see a thing except me.

  So that’s what I do. I put the plastic electronic baby in the suitcase and start grabbing blankets. I put the blankets over its face and then a pillow and some stuffed animals. I’m guessing that after a few minutes the noise will stop.

  Because to cry you need to be able to breathe.

  7:33 AT NIGHT,

  TUESDAY, SEPTEMBER 7TH

  I’m done with my shower but the plastic electronic baby is still crying. It was supposed to be quiet by now but it isn’t.

  My Forever Parents are sitting on the couch watching a movie. My Forever Mom has her feet in a bucket of water. She says lately they have been swollen. I walk out into the living room and stand in front of her and wait. Because she is a woman. I’m a lot more comfortable with women than I am with men.

  “Hey, Ginny,” my Forever Mom says while my Forever Dad presses the pause button. “What’s up? It looks as though you might have something to say.”

  “Ginny,” says my Forever Dad, “have you been picking at your hands again? They’re bleeding.”

  That was two questions so I don’t say anything.

  Then my Forever Mom says, “Ginny, what’s wrong?”

  “I don’t want the plastic electronic baby anymore,” I say.

  She brushes her hair off her forehead. I like her hair a lot. She let me try to put it in pigtails this summer. “It’s been almost forty minutes since you went into the shower,” she says. “Did you try to make it stop? Here. Hold this until we can get you some Band-Aids.”

  She gives me a napkin.

  “I gave it a bottle and changed its diaper three times,” I say. “I rocked it and it wouldn’t stop crying so I s—” Then I stop talking.

  “It’s making a different sort of sound now,” my Forever Dad says. “I didn’t know it could get that loud.”

  “Can you please make it stop?” I say to my Forever Mom. And then again, “Please?”

  “It’s great to hear you asking for help,” my Forever Mom says. “Patrice would be proud.”

  Far away down the hallway I hear the crying again so I start looking for places to hide. Because I remember that Gloria always used to come out of the bedroom in the apartment when I couldn’t get my Baby Doll to stop. Especially if she had a man-friend over. Sometimes when it cried and I heard her coming I used to take my Baby Doll and climb out the window.

  I grab the napkin tight and close my eyes. “If you make it stop I’ll ask for help all the time,” I say and then I open them again.

  “I’ll go have a look,” my Forever Dad says.

  He stands up. When he walks past me I recoil. Then I see that he isn’t Gloria. He looks at me funny and walks into the hallway. I hear him open the door to my room. The crying gets louder again.

  “I don’t know if this idea is working,” my Forever Mom says. “We wanted you to see what it was like to have a real baby in the house, but this is not turning out like we planned.”

  In my bedroom the crying gets as loud as it can get. My Forever Dad comes back out again. One of his hands is in his hair. “She put it in her suitcase,” he says.

  “What?”

  “I had to follow the sound. I didn’t see it anywhere at first. She crammed it in there with a bunch of blankets and stuffed animals, zipped it shut and then forced it back under her bed,” he says.

  “Ginny, why would you do a thing like that?” my Forever Mom says.

  “It wouldn’t stop crying,” I say.

  “Yes, but—”

  My Forever Dad interrupts her. “Look, it’s going to drive us all nuts if we don’t put an end to this. I tried to make it stop, but I couldn’t do it, either. I think it’s at the point of no return. Let’s just call Mrs. Winkleman.”

  Mrs. Winkleman is the health teacher.

  “She said she gave the emergency phone number to Ginny this morning,” my Forever Mom says. “It’s on a piece of paper. Check in her backpack.”

  He walks into the hall and opens the door to my bedroom again. I cover my ears. He comes out holding my backpack. My Forever Mom finds the paper and takes out her phone. “Mrs. Winkleman?” I hear her say. “Yes, this is Ginny’s mom. I’m sorry to call so late, but I’m afraid we’re having a problem with the baby.”

  “Don’t worry, Forever Girl,” my Forever Dad says to me. “This will all be over in a few minutes, and then you can get ready for bed. I’m sorry this is so intense and nerve-racking. We really thought—”

  My Forever Mom puts the phone down. “She says there’s a hole in the back of its neck. You have to put a paper clip into the hole to touch a button and shut it off.”

  He goes into the office and then he comes out again and walks down the hall into my bedroom. I start counting. When I get to twelve the crying stops.

  And now I can breathe again.

  2:27 IN THE AFTERNOON,

  WEDNESDAY, SEPTEMBER 8TH

  When I was in Period Four which is social studies Mrs. Lomos came into the classroom to give me a message. She is my guidance counselor. She has big circle earrings and wears lots of makeup. “Your parents are coming to school for a meeting,” she said. “They’re going to bring you home afterward, so when we hear the afternoon announcements and the bell rings, just stay in Room Five with Ms. Dana. You can work on your homework for a little while. They’ll call you in at some point. They want you to be part of it.”

  So right now I am in Room Five which is where I go for part of language arts with all the other special kids. Because I have autism and developmental disabilities. No one told me yesterday that there was going to be a meeting today. I’m guessing it’s about the plastic electronic baby.

  Ms. Dana is at bus duty. I see her out the window wearing her orange vest. She is standing next to Bus Number 74. Which is my bus. Behind it and in front of it are other buses. Lines and lines of kids are getting on them. In the hallway all the sports kids are getting ready for practice. Alison Hill and Kayla Zadambidge are already gone. They are the other two kids who go to Room Five with me and Larry.

  The buses usually leave by two-thirty but three minutes is not enough time for me to get on the internet. I’ve been trying for a long time to get on by myself but I’m not allowed to use it without an adult. One time when I was with Carla and Mike I put Carla’s laptop under my sweater and brought it into the closet. I was typing Gloria LeBla—in Google when the door opened and Carla found me. She took the laptop and when I stood up she got in my face and yelled and screamed.

  And that made me scared, scared, scared.

  So once at school when I was doing a report about big cats I tried to Google Gloria mostly sells Maine coon Cats because that is what Gloria does to make money. But my teacher caught me and when I came to this new school at my new Forever House
my new Forever Parents said I can’t go on the internet, ever, because they need to keep me safe. Then Maura said that both she and Brian love me and that the internet just isn’t safe. Just isn’t safe because we know you’re looking for Gloria is what she really meant even though she didn’t say that last part.

  And my Forever Mom is right because Gloria is back at the apartment with my Baby Doll. I don’t know what town the apartment is in. I need to know if she found my Baby Doll or if it’s been too long and now I’m too late. If I’m not too late I need to pick it up out of the suitcase fast and take excellent care of it again because Gloria sometimes goes away for days and days. Plus she has a lot of man-friends come over. And she gets mad and hits. Plus Donald, when he’s in town. I really wish I could be here more often, but I can’t, Crystal with a C used to say to me when I told her the things Gloria was doing. So make sure you take excellent care of your Baby Doll, just like your mom says. She’ll always be your little baby, no matter what.

  I come up out of my brain and start picking at my fingers.

  Larry walks in. He puts his backpack down on a desk and leans his arm braces against the wall and sits. Arm braces are like crutches except they attach to your body. They make Larry look like a grasshopper. Larry has brown hair and brown eyes. My eyes are green. Plus he sings all the time and doesn’t like math the way I do. “Hey, babe,” he says.

  So I say, “Larry, I am not a babe. I am thirteen years old. Don’t you know that yet? This is tedious.”

  Tedious means when you say something over and over and people get irritated like when Patrice used to tell me all the time that I was a little like a baby doll myself when I was in the apartment with Gloria. That was what she said when I tried to tell her that I needed to go check on it. She didn’t understand at all.

  Larry stretches out his arms and yawns. “Man, am I tired. It’s been a long, long day,” he says. “I have to stay until my mom picks me up to go to my sister’s volleyball practice.”

  “You should do your homework while you wait,” I say because that’s what Mrs. Lomos told me to do. I take out my language arts book and turn to page 57 which has a poem on it by Edgar Allan Poe.